I: Those wiser than I would have it that age must of necessity bring cynicism; but I, perhaps through fault of youth, must disagree. Cynicism seems rather the result of a loss of hope, a small step forward on the path of despair. Must I, simply by repeated and unwilled rotation about the sun tread down that path?
Myself: Well becoming a martyr might offer a simple alternative.
I: I don't believe that is in my power.
Me: What after all is so bad about cynicism? Is it so much to be feared? Perhaps it lends its weight to the wisdom of the aging.
I: Is cynicism then the cost of wisdom?
Me: The two oft seem entwined.
Myself: 'Tis a petty price to pay if it were for the greatest treasure of all, as doubtless wisdom is.
I: Yet I would not pay it.
Myself: Then have it not.
Me: How harsh a saying. Perhaps you have already begun to taste deeply of the well of cynicism.
Myself: Nay, but a certain healthy cynicism keeps one from expecting too much of others, like a dash of salt upon a meal.
I: There is truth in that. I, by nature, am certainly inclined to cynicism: I expect the worst, but still hope for the best.
Me: Hope—there you have the key of it.
Myself: As long as the key opens a door, I find no fault with it.
I: If I look at Myself—
Myself: I?
I: Yes, I that is—I cannot help but see that flawed and cowardly as I am, there is no hope and cynicism is the natural response. Certainly a lifetime of effort spent in exhausting my strength in seeking to produce some fruitful change in the world would leave me as dark and gloomy a cynic as ever was.
Me: Then not to become a cynic must mean the existence of something beyond Me.
Myself: Granted. You need only look about you.
I: Hope grounded in the world, in mankind, in Myself is worthless.
Myself: Sadly, true.
Me: Open the doors then to the world beyond Me.
Myself: And Myself.
I: And I.